Big Decisions.

I have got some very big choices to make.
And I have to make them within the next 2 weeks or so. I don't know why I'm so unsure about all of this.
I think it might have something to do with the fact that there are so many possibilities for what I actually want to do.

When I was thinking about coming to University when I was in my last  year of high school.
I knew pretty much exactly what I wanted to do. Which was teaching early childhood. When that got "struck down" so to speak, I took it as a sign that I wasn't ready to do teaching and had some growing up to do. Or that maybe I shouldn't do teaching at all.
That was a pretty big decision for me. Changing my whole idea of what I wanted to do with my life, putting my dream of being a teacher on hold. But i think because of that, because I stopped, did my BA, I've come to learn a lot more, and think a lot more about why I actually want to teach, and how I want to make a difference in other peoples lives.

The big decision for me now, it choosing between doing my Graduate Diploma in either Early Childhood, Primary or High School teaching.
I've talked to a lot of people, gotten some good advice and feedback and what not. But I still am so lost at choosing which area I should go.
There are good and bad points for all the areas, but I think whats putting me off the most is the fact that I'm terrified I will pick the wrong one.
That's why I'm trying to think about everything so carefully, so intrinsically about where I want to go.
My main goal in life is to help children and youth who have sturrgled or who are struggling with the help of theatre.
If there is any way I can do this, I will be willing to try. But for now, I have got some seriously big decisions to make.

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Young Love.

I absolutely can not wait to get married.
To have my own house and to wake up each morning beside someone and to kiss that someone goodnight and good morning.

A lot of people say that getting married young is stupid, and I feel in this day and age you get frowned upon in you even think about getting married at the age of  20, let alone if you're engaged by then! "Is it because you're pregnant?" Is one thing someone I know got asked. "No." She replied, I've been with my boyfriend for 3 years and we love each other and want to spend the rest of our lives together". People are so quick to judge.
When I talk to some of my friends about things like marrying young, or we hear of other people who get engaged at a young age and what not, they immediately get judged because they're seen as "throwing away their life". Because apparently at 20/21 you should go and travel, and you should be having a ton of boyfriends so you can find the right one to marry, when the time comes of course.






Of course, I'm not saying that you have to get married at a young age. Or that you shouldn't go traveling.
What I'm trying to say is that people shouldn't judge other people so harshly because of something they are choosing to do. Back in the old days wasn't it morally acceptable to get married at 19 and have your first kid by the age of 22?
Also, I know that one in three marriages end in divorce, and a lot of people blame young love. But I don't think you should blame people getting married at a young age, in fact if you should 'blame' anyone, blame society, blame celebrities for using marriage as a gimmick, I think it's sad that there are no real role models for marriage anymore.
 I am 19 and I would happily get married at the age of 21, if I could afford a wedding by then, of course that probably won't happen, but who knows!
Pretty much I just can't wait to belong to someone, especially that one person who brings me so much joy and happiness. I don't need to go out and "see the other options out there", when I have a perfectly great one right in front of me.


It's late, well not really..11PM, and I really don't know why I'm writing/written this... But whatever.
I'd love to hear other peoples thoughts on this. So comment. and whatever.
but yep.
That's me.