On Friday the 8th of June, I will have handed in my last assignment for A semester. I will be technically be halfway through my degree.
So, this post is pretty much a reflection on the last 2 years of my life, from where I was to where I am now, to hopefully where I am going.
Two Years ago
I was in my last year of High school, I was doing extremely averagely. I had low self esteem, I felt like I was going through so much, when really It was nothing compared to what some people go through.
I went through a different array of friends, found out who I trusted, who I didn't trust and who I had to let go of completely.
2010 was a year that I feel I broke out of my shell, I tried to not care what other people thought of me, but of course that's hard at a high school.
Of course, 2010 was the year I got ~diagonosed~ with depression/anxiety. I felt alone all the time, lost interest in my subjects at school, felt worthless, I really lost all sense of happiness. I couldn't wait to move out of home and head out into the big wide world of University. In 2010, so much happened, I moved to Thames, I graduated High school, I had to start thinking about what I wanted to do with the rest of my life.
One year Ago
Wow, so in 2011, only a year ago. I moved to Hamilton, and started studying at the University of Waikato.
I packed up my room into a suitcase and started living in the Halls of residence. Here I met some crazy people, but also people who have become great friends!
In 2011, I began my study journey. Instead of doing Teaching, like I had planned to for the last 3 or so years, I was doing a Bachelor Of Arts, Double majoring in theatre studies and design media. I made friends, and we went out and partied because thats what people did in Hamilton. But i soon learnt there is more to life then going out and getting smashed every weekend.
In 2011, something wonderful happened to me. I met the guy of my dreams.
Yep, cheeesy, but whatever. Endrico came into my life, he reintroduced me to God. In some ways, I guess you could say, I refound happiness through Endrico, and also through God.
It made me think, why didn't i think of Him when I was at my lowest point. But that was in the past, and I had to move on.
In 2011, I did some awesome things, Like get an A on an assignment I thought I'd get a C on. I discussed things like Euthanasia and abortion, i got given a bible, I walked home at midnight from town with my friends, I stayed up talking till 2AM. 2011, was pretty much the best year of my life. Because I met so many great people, and learnt so many things. I felt I could do anything.
Now.
It's 2012 now. The supposed end of the world year. But I don't believe it. This year, I'm flatting with friends from Uni. I have a job and am in my second year at Uni, so far passing everything with good grades!
Sometimes, I wish I was closer to home, because I miss family. I miss Endrico. I miss my best friend.
But, I feel happy knowing that they're not too far away when I need them.
I feel that since 2010, I have matured, and come a long way from the insecure, unhappy, anxious 17 year old.
Knowing that I have 5 weeks off..then it's B semester, scares me a little bit! because then. It'll be summer, and it'll be 2013, and I'll have one more year to really decide what I absolutely want to do with myself.
All I know is that whatever happens, God will help through it. He got me through my past, he can get me through the present towards my future too!
Peace.
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