In 2007 I learnt that love may not last forever between two people. I learnt more about my Mother and my Father. I learnt about deceit and lies, and manipulation. That was when I first started feeling depressed. It was 2007. I was 14.
In 2008, I learnt that you never know when someone is going to be taken away from you. The reason I learnt this lesson was because I almost lost my best friend at the time in a Car accident. It was possibly one of the worse times of my life. You never know when someones time is up. I learnt a lot about friendship aswell, who really cared and who was just using me.. 2008 was the year I really started coming out of my shell. But I didn't realize I had a long way to go. I was 15 and I was convinced I was going to be alone forever.
In 2009 that was when shit really started to hit the fan, as the saying goes. I lost one of my good friends. And gained a few. I had a boyfriend, who was 4 years older than me. He wanted sex, but agreed to wait till I was ready. In 2009, my emotions got thrown around so much, by everyone. And I learnt that sometimes you have to do things on your own. I learnt that people will disappoint you, hurt you, and lie to you. I learnt so much about myself, and friendship. I started to understand who my true friends really were. I discovered that boys only want one thing. I also, learnt more about family, when my Mum started dating a
Then, in 2010 was when I really started to hate my life. For numerous reasons.
I was in my last year of Highschool, I had to put up with my Mum's boyfriend. I felt alone all the time.
2010, was THE year that I really and truly learnt who my real friends were. I had 3 people turn their backs on me. For the almost the entire school year I hardly spoke a word to them. They all believed that just because I was hanging out with different people, getting to know other people, being busy with school work that I was neglecting them, and maybe in some ways I was. But not in a way that i meant it. So, I learnt lots about friendship. I learnt a lot about loneliness.
I had only about 3 other good friends, one of whome never showed up to class, so I ended up hiding out in the library or sitting with another girl and her boyfriend at lunch.
I learnt about alcohol and it's effects on people. I learnt that you can't stay in one place forever. I learnt that life can be so tough on you, but to never giveup.
I also learnt about mental illnesses. And that You are NOT alone in this world.
2010 taught me so much, and it was the year that I really learnt who I was and learnt to not care what people think.
And what have I learned in 2011? Turning 18, I learnt that the world doesn't revolve around alcohol.
I learnt what it feels like to make new friends, who turn out to be some of the best you've had!
I learnt that people do come and go, I learnt that money doesn't grow on trees. I learnt that love can be found in the strangest of places, and that there is someone out there for you.
I learnt about God, and all he has done for us. And I wish I knew him when I was going through all that termoil in my life the last few years.
I realized its okay to take risks sometimes, because those plunges you do could be the best thing to happen to you.
Of course, my life is only just beginning. Next year, I am planning on moving out for real, into a flat with 2 of my really great friends!
Which means more responsability and even more lessons to be learn.
So Life, come at me bro. Because I have been through a lot. And I can take it.
M
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