From my Wordpress "The Only Exception"

Sitting here, procrastinating by writing on here, listening to Paramore when The Only Exception started playing.
One of my favorites from Paramore, it made me think about what the lyrics mean to me.

The first lines,

“When I was younger I saw,
My Daddy cry and curse at the wind.
He broke is own heart and I watched
as he tried to reassemble it.”

have a lot of significant meaning to me as I have seen my Father cry, and curse towards the sky.  He did have to “reassemble” is own heart. I know he cried about my Mother leaving him for a long time.
So I always feel some sort of sadness in those opening lines.

The next lines

“And my momma swore that she would,
never let herself forget
And that was the day I swore
I’d never sing of love if it
if it does not exsist”

also relate back to mine coming from a Broke home. My mum was lonely for ages. And I didn’t really ever want to get into a relationship because I felt that well…My life would end up like  my Parents.

The chorus, obvious. “You are the only exception” I’ve only had really 3 serious boyfriends in my life. My first boyfriend colin, who I thought was someone who I could trust, and I thought  i “loved” him…When really I just wanted a sense of security..I wanted to get rid of that aching loneliness caused from my parents split. So when he broke up with me. I was lost and alone again. My next boyfriend was a bit of a mistake..he was in a way the rebound. He was the friend who  turned into the boyfriend who then turned into nothing. He was pretty much a comforter.

The next verse

“maybe I know somewhere
deep in my soul that love never  lasts.
and we’ve got to find other ways
to make it alone and keep a straigt face”

pretty much sums up my life. For ages after my parents split. I didn’t want to believe in love. I didn’t want to believe in realtionships and people having feelings for you. When I thought people could change that,  I wanted to believe in love…So in a way I did “keep a straigt face” but I new that wasn’t the case.

The next part

“and I’ve always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance
and up untill now I had sworn to myself
that I’m content with loneliness
because none of it was ever worth the risk “

speaks to me too. I do end up distancing myself from people. Because I feel I don’t want to get to close to them. But that changed when I met my current boyfriend. He is wonderful. and the line  ”up until now I had sworn to myself that I’m content with loneliness” truely describes what life was like for me before I met him. I was content with being lonely. I had a few close friends, a few aquantiances, but i felt no one really cared for me.. etc etc etc.

I guess you could say he saved me from being content with loneliness.
The  bridge and the line ” I know you’re leaving in the morning when you wake up leave me with some kind of truth it’s not a dream.”  describes my thoughts on my relationship “is this actually happening?” an amazing guy likes me..me. I don’t want it to be a dream, I know it’s not.

What I’m tyring to say is that I’ve found my exception to the rules I once played in my head.

Peace out.

M